i don't really kjnow where to start but, yeah. i know i have to sometime

i dont' recognize my life anymore, i reallt don'y know how it got this weird.

but then the more i talk about my past, the more i realize how fucked up my life really is. what an odd feeling.

last night i had a dream i was in space floating in orbit around jupiter, in this green dust looking type stuff, and there were other people there, but we weren't really people, we didn't have bodies and we were all looking at jupiter. it was gorgeous, reds browns oranges yellows, swirling together in this cosmic oblivion of color. the group of things (whatever we were supposed to be) were having some kind of gathering, and i was just listening to what they were saying, even though they weren't really speaking. someone "said" that jupiter was really bright and strong, but they didn't really use those words, but thats what it meant, sort of.

yeah...

maybe more later.

:: Rowan ::